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sing a rainbow too
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sing along with me
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6/20/2006 11:04:00 AM
[x] im not perfect either ((://*
5/26/2006 08:13:00 PM
[x] im not perfect either ((://*
5/23/2006 01:31:00 PM
[x] im not perfect either ((://*
5/19/2006 03:26:00 PM
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5/14/2006 04:02:00 PM
Look at this Hottie. Pik Yee bought for me yesterday :). Isn't it sweet ? We gals went to Raffles city for celebrating Elaine's birthday
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5/05/2006 04:09:00 PM
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4/23/2006 06:44:00 PM
Tuesday, June 20, 2006
I'm going back to malaysia now... My mom is sick and i have the responsibility to bring her go and see doctor.
Dear God, I pray that my mom will be alright, hope your healing hands will touch upon her. I m very worry about her so God, pls take away all of my worries and my troubles.
At this moment, i need a quiet place to quiet myself....
Pls stay close beside me as i know i have no one but U.
Love u ,
Jas.
I gotta go now.. bye !
Dear God, I pray that my mom will be alright, hope your healing hands will touch upon her. I m very worry about her so God, pls take away all of my worries and my troubles.
At this moment, i need a quiet place to quiet myself....
Pls stay close beside me as i know i have no one but U.
Love u ,
Jas.
I gotta go now.. bye !
[x] im not perfect either ((://*
6/20/2006 11:04:00 AM
alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*
Friday, May 26, 2006
Suffering of the gastric pain nowadays.. sigh. What a tragedy ! Wednesday finished the class kinda late, it was about 11.30pm and i reached at home alomst 12.45am. Gastric pain suddenly came to me when i reached at MRT station.. sigh...what happend to me? I almost fainted when i reached at the control station, luckily i still have a little bit energy to bear with me. My gosh... then the smrt officer came to me and asked me whether okay or not... haiz... i am so useless and helpess. I don't know how to take care of myself..
I know i need to take care of myself as i have nobody to take care of me. I know i need to have the proper meal. I know, i know , i know., but :
When the exam coming soon, and you have been studying hard to achieve the prize winner for some reasons then u will not care about the health.
When the wallet left not much money then you will tell yourself : i think i better eat bread today.
When there is no one will accompany you to have the meal, then you will tell yourself : Let me to eat instant noodles.
It comes to the end, when the gastric pain come to u then u will says : " i have no appetite to eat any foods.
Conclusion : when all these happend again and again then i think i will die earlier and die of LACKING NUTRITION. !!
I know i need to take care of myself as i have nobody to take care of me. I know i need to have the proper meal. I know, i know , i know., but :
When the exam coming soon, and you have been studying hard to achieve the prize winner for some reasons then u will not care about the health.
When the wallet left not much money then you will tell yourself : i think i better eat bread today.
When there is no one will accompany you to have the meal, then you will tell yourself : Let me to eat instant noodles.
It comes to the end, when the gastric pain come to u then u will says : " i have no appetite to eat any foods.
Conclusion : when all these happend again and again then i think i will die earlier and die of LACKING NUTRITION. !!
[x] im not perfect either ((://*
5/26/2006 08:13:00 PM
alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
Big walk 10km ! Oh well, i finished 10km big walk and the next gonna be the " ShapeRun 2006 - 5Km" and i am joining. But i have yet to register. Never mind the closing date will be on 31 June. which mean that i still have another one month to register it... take my time. Don't worry.
Alright, u asked me how;s the big walk. I would said that it was a good walk but i am not really enjoyed as that's too much people, almost 10,000 people loh. Have to squeeze here and there.... :(. Some more i was injured my right foot on the saturday night while playing the captain ball. Woeeeww...... captain ball game was fun. Looking forward for next month's social games night :)
Okay, after the big walk, i just following some of them went to suntec city to have lunch loh.... another small walk...sigh..my left leg was so pain. I am so depress + fed up. After finished the lunch, christon, brian, ya hui and me took the train back home. I was so tired therefore after the shower i dun even care to wait for my hair to dry so i straight away lying on my bed and soon after i was fallen asleep.
When i wake up was already 8pm and my stomach not feeling well. At first i thought i was too hungry so i quickly to have some hot drink and it did helps for a while. About half and hrs later, my stomach pain again, and u know what, i though is stomach cramp but it's not. It was my gastric pain, My gosh..... i already finished my gastric medicine and by that time, the clinic already closed. I was so painful and in agony. i have no choice so i called pik yee for help. After 15 mins , pastor and her sent the medicine for me.... i feeling that i am so useless as i have been staying alone for almost half a year still don't know how to take care of myself.
I hate the feeling of sickness. Extremely hate it. I will cry when everytime i sick as it let me to remember my mom. Everybody needs care and love when they are feeling sick. But right now , there is nobody will take care of me if i falling sick, i have to depend and take care myself ..........soooo...... i can't sick ...
Alright, u asked me how;s the big walk. I would said that it was a good walk but i am not really enjoyed as that's too much people, almost 10,000 people loh. Have to squeeze here and there.... :(. Some more i was injured my right foot on the saturday night while playing the captain ball. Woeeeww...... captain ball game was fun. Looking forward for next month's social games night :)
Okay, after the big walk, i just following some of them went to suntec city to have lunch loh.... another small walk...sigh..my left leg was so pain. I am so depress + fed up. After finished the lunch, christon, brian, ya hui and me took the train back home. I was so tired therefore after the shower i dun even care to wait for my hair to dry so i straight away lying on my bed and soon after i was fallen asleep.
When i wake up was already 8pm and my stomach not feeling well. At first i thought i was too hungry so i quickly to have some hot drink and it did helps for a while. About half and hrs later, my stomach pain again, and u know what, i though is stomach cramp but it's not. It was my gastric pain, My gosh..... i already finished my gastric medicine and by that time, the clinic already closed. I was so painful and in agony. i have no choice so i called pik yee for help. After 15 mins , pastor and her sent the medicine for me.... i feeling that i am so useless as i have been staying alone for almost half a year still don't know how to take care of myself.
I hate the feeling of sickness. Extremely hate it. I will cry when everytime i sick as it let me to remember my mom. Everybody needs care and love when they are feeling sick. But right now , there is nobody will take care of me if i falling sick, i have to depend and take care myself ..........soooo...... i can't sick ...
[x] im not perfect either ((://*
5/23/2006 01:31:00 PM
alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*
Friday, May 19, 2006
There is a love which i lost for many years,
Now i found it.
You've come into my Life and give me love.
I feel being loved and cared suddenly,
I'm just wondering how long is this love will last?
You bought me a " Hottie"
You bought me the "Wheat Bix, Oat and other groceries"
And you keep reminding me to take my breakfast and lunch.
You're showing the love like my mom.
And this is how you care for me !
You're feeling moody,
And keep i asking you the reason,
but you ignored me,
I am feeling upset,
My heart are not only shattering into pieces but also bleeding,
As you have echoes the episode from the past in my life.
I couldn't sleep for a night,
My tears have come to me again.
I couldn't control my emotion.
Hence, i hiding myself in the room and keep myself isolated.
I wanted to tell you my feeling and my thinking,
But you're so busy and busy.
I am praying and praying,
Ask the God to keep me strong,
suddenly, i heard this :
Only the strong can endure their shattering; the weak need their defenses.
Am i really not strong enough?
But I did kept myself strong thoughout all these years.
And all the people said " I am strong. "
Then you replied me :
" Jas, you're not strong. You looks strong in front of the people that's because u afraid of shame.
Indeed, you are weak and you need me. Come, cast all of your worries and the fears for me,
I will take care all of it."
My tears have flowing like a river.
I know you love me, God.
But how i wish that i can see you and touch you.
You know i long for the love and yet afraid of losing it.
I just don't wish the painful episode will echoe again.
As my heart already shattered into pieces.................
Now i found it.
You've come into my Life and give me love.
I feel being loved and cared suddenly,
I'm just wondering how long is this love will last?
You bought me a " Hottie"
You bought me the "Wheat Bix, Oat and other groceries"
And you keep reminding me to take my breakfast and lunch.
You're showing the love like my mom.
And this is how you care for me !
You're feeling moody,
And keep i asking you the reason,
but you ignored me,
I am feeling upset,
My heart are not only shattering into pieces but also bleeding,
As you have echoes the episode from the past in my life.
I couldn't sleep for a night,
My tears have come to me again.
I couldn't control my emotion.
Hence, i hiding myself in the room and keep myself isolated.
I wanted to tell you my feeling and my thinking,
But you're so busy and busy.
I am praying and praying,
Ask the God to keep me strong,
suddenly, i heard this :
Only the strong can endure their shattering; the weak need their defenses.
Am i really not strong enough?
But I did kept myself strong thoughout all these years.
And all the people said " I am strong. "
Then you replied me :
" Jas, you're not strong. You looks strong in front of the people that's because u afraid of shame.
Indeed, you are weak and you need me. Come, cast all of your worries and the fears for me,
I will take care all of it."
My tears have flowing like a river.
I know you love me, God.
But how i wish that i can see you and touch you.
You know i long for the love and yet afraid of losing it.
I just don't wish the painful episode will echoe again.
As my heart already shattered into pieces.................
[x] im not perfect either ((://*
5/19/2006 03:26:00 PM
alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*
Sunday, May 14, 2006
I am so tired + bad mood today. Just came back from YA's dinner at Vil'age restaurant. It's located at china square centre lah. Haiz.... damn busy. Thursday when i finished cell group, Qin and me stay over at pik yee's house. Then on the friday morning, Qin, Pik yee and me are supposedly to go market to buy some stuff for friday's parents day but Qin was wake up early so she went to market in the very early morning. therefore i went to market with pik yee. That was a really busy day. Pik yee got to work on morning ( even though is holiday still got to work for half day) haiz...pik yee has been working too hard and she is damn busy. After she finishing her work on friday then she still had a lunch with her nurses so i was alone at her house to waiting for her and pastor to come back.
They came back around 4pm then me and pik yee went to cold storage to buy some others stuff for the parents' day again. After that went to YWC to get sth then straight away go to church. She didn't rest for a whole until and she was busy from morning until night about 10.00pm. Haiz... why she wanna work so hard.
Hmm....she was very very bad mood in the afternoon time. I don't know what happend to her then i keeping her about the reason i think she will feel very troubled. This is my first to see pik yee so unhappy. I felt very upset , i don't what to do. I couldn't sleep for a night, i know that i didn't done anything wrong but the feeling and the tears have unconsciously come to me. she didn't join us for the dinner and i was sms to her when i saw her so stressed up. Then she replied that : " she just feeling tired and need a break". Deep inside my heart, she really been working too hard, and indeed she need a break.
Haiz.... somethings was really bother me nowadays. Pik Yee has come into my life. i was feeling scared of losing this kinda love again. Maybe becuase of the past experiences that i have so that i am more greedy and selfish for the love that i received. Oh God, i just want the person that i love to be happy forever and if they happy then i am the happiest.. I hope she is okay now.
They came back around 4pm then me and pik yee went to cold storage to buy some others stuff for the parents' day again. After that went to YWC to get sth then straight away go to church. She didn't rest for a whole until and she was busy from morning until night about 10.00pm. Haiz... why she wanna work so hard.
Hmm....she was very very bad mood in the afternoon time. I don't know what happend to her then i keeping her about the reason i think she will feel very troubled. This is my first to see pik yee so unhappy. I felt very upset , i don't what to do. I couldn't sleep for a night, i know that i didn't done anything wrong but the feeling and the tears have unconsciously come to me. she didn't join us for the dinner and i was sms to her when i saw her so stressed up. Then she replied that : " she just feeling tired and need a break". Deep inside my heart, she really been working too hard, and indeed she need a break.
Haiz.... somethings was really bother me nowadays. Pik Yee has come into my life. i was feeling scared of losing this kinda love again. Maybe becuase of the past experiences that i have so that i am more greedy and selfish for the love that i received. Oh God, i just want the person that i love to be happy forever and if they happy then i am the happiest.. I hope she is okay now.
[x] im not perfect either ((://*
5/14/2006 04:02:00 PM
alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*
Friday, May 05, 2006
Look at this Hottie. Pik Yee bought for me yesterday :). Isn't it sweet ? We gals went to Raffles city for celebrating Elaine's birthday
[x] im not perfect either ((://*
5/05/2006 04:09:00 PM
alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*
Sunday, April 23, 2006
What is forgiveness?
My heart wants to know,
Does it come all at once,
Or does it slowly grow?
It can come in all forms
From the intense to the soft,
And already you've pardoned
More often than not
I say 'I don't" care
to me no difference it makes
yet i am so angry
And how my heart aches.
we feel hate and anger
Which are love's flip side,
When we hurt the most,
they mask love deep inside.
But the anger I feel,
Is so deep in my heart,
And i fear that without it,
I'd just all apart.
Child, you need to let go,
Let the Lord do his part,
He can then take away,
All the pain in your heart.
Well, I'm tired of anger,
I'm weary from hate,
I want to forgive now,
before it's too late.
I know it feels scary,
to let anger go,
what will come in its place?
Soon you will know.
Where once i felt hate,
Again i feel love,
this new peace drifted in,
On the wing of a dove.
Forgivenss will happen,
When we learn to let go,
Then the love in our hearts,
Will be whiter than snow.
My heart wants to know,
Does it come all at once,
Or does it slowly grow?
It can come in all forms
From the intense to the soft,
And already you've pardoned
More often than not
I say 'I don't" care
to me no difference it makes
yet i am so angry
And how my heart aches.
we feel hate and anger
Which are love's flip side,
When we hurt the most,
they mask love deep inside.
But the anger I feel,
Is so deep in my heart,
And i fear that without it,
I'd just all apart.
Child, you need to let go,
Let the Lord do his part,
He can then take away,
All the pain in your heart.
Well, I'm tired of anger,
I'm weary from hate,
I want to forgive now,
before it's too late.
I know it feels scary,
to let anger go,
what will come in its place?
Soon you will know.
Where once i felt hate,
Again i feel love,
this new peace drifted in,
On the wing of a dove.
Forgivenss will happen,
When we learn to let go,
Then the love in our hearts,
Will be whiter than snow.
[x] im not perfect either ((://*
4/23/2006 06:44:00 PM
alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*
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